I had a lot of free time today, and I didn't feel inspired to write here. Instead I wrote a bunch of fiction and other comm game items. I enjoy developing life strategy. I feel like writing is a terrible expression art form. It requires a lot of shared developed attention and explanation - which is hard when I spend so much time in a nonverbal world.
A nonverbal world is fast paced. Even within that scope, I work in team setting. As caregivers, the five of us are on the same page all day. It's kind of awesome. Telepathic in many ways. We make it game-like whenever possible. Not just for the kids but for ourselves. An adult can only listen to Cocomelon so many times without going insane. lol. Within our classroom, we currently have a dance challenge - who can master this song. Fair warning, I'm an awful dancer. I'm going to lose this challenge. :)
Today I was in one of those game moods, not longwinded deep writing. It's hard to concisely compound info into a digestable format. I think about this often, and it's an ongoing problem for SM storytime. Memes are not the solution. Neither are tweets. SM does a terrible job of replicating friendship growth. That's what is missing. It takes time to get to know someone and to learn of them. With a shortened attention span and nonstop divisive themes applied, I'm actually kind of surprised SM isn't worse. But most people flow to a comfort bubble zone and don't branch out.
I've mentioned this before but I'm a highly socialized person. I grew up in a church. My parents and the church didn't believe in college. I wanted out. At 16 my first job was in sales. It wasn't easy, developing those skills or working with the public. People can be difficult to understand and please. I like people though. My high school and early college years were spent in various sales roles. Everything from curtain/draperies, furniture, housewares, appliances, and even car parts. Also mixed in was restaurant management. I'm a workaholic. Sometimes I'm not sure if it's a gift or curse.
~had to take a small break. Saw an incredible sunset and had to go enjoy it. This was stunning, even by Kansas standards. We are blessed with these kinds of colorful views. Kansas is misunderstood.

Anyway back to writing - socialization. I think it's important to recognize these are learned skills beyond natural gifts. It takes a certain amount of boldness to break through barriers. I would not be where I am today, without this personality and life choices. I picked up this attitude from those around me. I've known a lot of bold people. They're gone now but I can carry their memory and spirit.
Many don't know this but my grandpa was a professional boxer. He came to the US as a small child, unable to speak English. Toughest person I had ever met, until I had my kids. They too were fighters.
One of the hardest things, I never got a chance to talk to him as an adult. He passed when I was 16 and by that time, the accumulated physical damage from boxing had taken it's toll. Worse, his medicalized death bankrupted my grandma. Everything he had worked for in life, vanished with him. Living in that survivor wake - shaped me. Hard.
Love. Endurance. Truth. All these things were important to me. I faced the gravity of life early and often. I've known a lot of grief but I've survived due to the kindness of others.
It's possible to be tough and compassionate. This combo is why I enjoy advocacy and my job as a behavior therapist. Also why so much of my writing over the years tipped into psychological warfare. Not everyone can find the ability to be kind or reasonable.
ugh, running out of time tonight. There was another plane crash yesterday. This time involving a medvac and medically fragile child - which was near to my heart. All was lost. In addition, every day more personal information trickles through about the Wichita/DCA crash. So much sadness.
Again, I'm not sure how to deal with these tragedies other than to offer accountability through shared observation. When it comes to grief management; sometimes the only thing that keeps me functional is the idea that others not endure the same circumstances.
Other things I noticed but haven't had time to research - pharmacies in rural KS "Close for a Cause"
Independent pharmacies across Kansas will close on Wednesday, Feb.5, for a day of advocacy to raise awareness of what they call unfair business practices by pharmacy benefit managers.
Sloane Freeman, president of the Kansas Pharmacists Association, said the "Close for a Cause" event is meant to show customers what life would be like without independent pharmacies in Kansas.
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