I have been looking forward to writing all day. Somehow it's given me a new lease on life and that feels silly but it's become a source of motivation that I needed to help reshape my habits. I wasn't quite sure what topics to cover or what direction I wanted to go - all the various threads flowed through my mind all day. I love the freedom of writing without edits.
I feel like it's going to be possible to commit to a daily journal entry. It'll be messy and fun but that's just who I am as a person anyway - I'm a play therapist. But instead of talking to toddlers and children, anyone reading this is an adult. That's actually kind of refreshing.
I had a rough work day. I'm not allowed to write about my work activity and that's okay - I'm able to compartmentalize fairly well. Still, it's something I am the most worried about when it comes to publicly journaling. Despite that limitation, it is really nice to be able to leave work at work. All day I am with an incredible team of people who hold a wide range of specialized talent and it's awesome - a benefit that goes recognized, the quality of bubble someone finds themself in.
I thought about that a lot today, the few times I glimpsed at the front page of Yahoo and Reddit. I tried to imagine how many adults in the background thought the 'bizarre' behavior was a good idea. To be honest, I'm biased. I live in a first responder conservative environment where people work real careers instead of putting on theatrics. I have a complicated history - I was married to a senior natural gas technician over a large metro city. Safety and competence is a way of life. It's fairly obvious to me when it's being disregarded. ~And that's a topic I don't want to write about tonight. I'm trying to keep this light. Continuing to use my skills to analyze this type of stuff? Not healthy for me. The goal is to develop new healthy habits.
You're entering a politics free zone.
Let me try again - I had a very long day. Kansas is currently in an endless frozen hell. It snowed again today. While I have gotten used to driving in ice and snow, my breaks locked up and I slid out into oncoming traffic. My heart did not need that kind of test.
I was so excited to finally make it home, only to find a squished rotten orange in my work backpack. Yes, I carry a strange random assortment of toys, candy, snacks and fruit. I never know when I'm going to need a reinforcer item. It's a unique job. I am this type of clumsy and forgetful though. Sometimes all I can do is laugh. Although that's not what I did today. I'm pretty good at silent cussing.
Kind of a short post tonight but that's okay. I'm still here.
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