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6/18/2025. #14

6/17/2025 - Wichita
6/17/2025 - Wichita

Yesterday was exhaustive and catastrophic. I am okay but my parent's home was crushed by a tree. Throughout the city there is damage. It's difficult to describe these damaging consistent storms, floods and how they're chipping away at morale and small businesses. It's been an awful weather year.


#14 - Describe an illness or injury that stands out in your memory. What happened, how long did it take to recover, and what do you remember from the recovery?

Sigh. Let's just go with the pregnancy. It was the one that started a chain reaction for so many of the others. I was 20 weeks pregnant with Jake and Julia - the pregnancy collapsed. No real easy way to describe that kind of medical horror. My cervix prematurely opened and I found myself in an emergency surgery as doctors somehow managed to sew me shut. It was the beginning of a nonstop nightmare that I willingly endured to save their lives. I am grateful that doctor's respected my wishes as a woman and had the skill to intervene because it truly was a miracle.


And yes, it opened up a cascade of dilemmas involving practically every radical extremist controversy imaginable. I began to live it - right there in that hospital bed from that point on. Originally I was counseled to terminate healthy babies. Later on, I was counseled to terminate babies that might have disabilities one day. No one really knew. But everyone had an opinion. That kind of thing. Keep in mind I already had a fundamentalist background and when stressed, I tend to retreat back into that kind of simple personality. Back then I was married to a large, loud and bold man. I was a quiet petite accountant and Hispanic. It was nothing but impossible decisions and most of the time I was disrespected, medically disregarded and the one person whose life was irrevocably changed.


It's been 16 years, still recovering. I remember everything thanks to misunderstood complex PTSD and same driven personal identity that chose that path in the first place. After I got past the physical threat to my life/body - from the pregnancy and surgeries, I thrived. I welcomed the challenge. I've had great days. I've had hell days. Everything in between. What I don't have? Regret.


Would love to write more about this but I am exhausted and out of time tonight.




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