It was surreal today. I drove home from work with the car window down and the AC on. I have an old car, kind of need to do both. lol. Along with a pounding headache, one that I now can recognize from blood pressure fluctuations. I'm guessing my medicated body does not like the extreme temperature swings. I hope it's temporary, not some kind of side effect from hot weather. The headache was pretty bad though.
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Had to take a walk, hoping to clear the headache. Didn't really help. But did see a pretty sunset. The lake still has ice. That too was surreal. I could feel the ice melting. An awesome sensation.
The lake water looked black as it reflected the night sky. And the geese left feathers everywhere. Was such a cool experience. I definitely need more outdoor time.
Given all the life challenges recently, had to stop the 5K run training. Today I wish I was out there again - running. Accomplished and free, even if in a small personal way.
It's weird for me. I don't feel discouraged when faced with obstacles I cannot clear. I'm just eager to start over, even if from the beginning - which is what I'm going to have to do with running. Maybe I can start Wednesday as tomorrow will be a long day at work. I already feel tired just thinking about it. I hate that I can feel even the tiniest bit of depression creeping in. I am so tired of that battle.
The best way for me to battle depression is through writing. It lends a sense of control, as long as I am not emotionally overloaded. I am tonight.
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