Early in the day, found out that Jake did in fact break his arm. Managed to get him into the ortho surgeon this afternoon. Which was crazy busy - many from the same type of ice and fall injuries. Hours of delay sitting in a doctors office triggered my PTSD. Plus all the chaos of having to reorganize my work schedule and the people in my life panicking about the approaching snow storm. I'm beyond exhausted.
I had an old man yell at me because while waiting to check in, Jake wanted to read a sign close up and he believed we were cutting in line. Jake is bigger than me now. I can't just physically stop him from doing what he wants to do. But that was one of those situations where someone being an asshole was unnecessary.
It doesn't take much observation to realize that Jake isn't typical. Although lately he's been quiet and subdued from his injury - I guess it makes people see him as normal. I shouldn't have to put a sign around my child to explain that he's different with medical challenges. I feel like adults should act as adults. Take a moment to assess whether or not they truly are under attack/threatened. We were in a doctor's office. Not a checkout line at Walmart.
I'm a tiny person. I barely weigh 100 pounds and I handle all kinds of behavior problems all day at work. To me, it's ridiculous that grown adults cannot find a way to moderate their emotions in public.
I realize that this is petty to write but these kinds of things happen all the time especially when I'm out with Jake alone. With Julia in her wheelchair and all three of us together, these kinds of conversations/event don't happen. The wheelchair is like a silencer. Or an invisibilty cloak. People go out of their way to avoid us.
Yet it's harder for me to attend to tasks with all of us together. I left Julia with my parents so I could focus on helping Jake through the appointment and x-rays/treatment. Plus it's cold and windy. Loading and unloading the wheelchair was a task I did not want to do but also she's a patient at this ortho place - did not want her to get upset. However it's messed up that if she would have been with us, an old man would not have been an asshole to me and found restraint.
I don't know how to describe that situational but it's the same problem with politicians and why they cannot find restraint from acting like a hysterical asshole. Maybe they should. I'm an observant citizen.
Once again, I had (hours) of internet browsing time as I waited through yet another clogged specialist doctor's office so I had time to glance at politics. I fail to see how reducing medical services benefits our country. We need more medical providers, not less. This is not even up for debate.
Anyway it's late. Most of the family medical drama seems to be winding down. Jake's injury does not require surgery. Just a sling. Both kids seem to be healthier after the flu. Due to the impending snow storm - school has already been cancelled. Work has not. My stress levels pretty high. Not sure I even want to take my blood pressure reading tonight. Going to try to relax.
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