8/12/2025.

Strong opinions. Fairly certain I've written of this already, maybe even in one of the prior posts. Although my memory is faded on this because I write so many different projects.

I live my opinions. That's the greatest honor and pointed respect that I could draw to them. Living by example. Behavior and communication go hand in hand. It's a world full of bias, grief and bad faith actors. In my heart I am a caregiver and medical provider. People deserve assistance and compassion.

Idk - I am extremely tired tonight and unable to expand on this more. I'm in another burnout phase. My blood pressure is high, despite the medication. I don't know what is wrong with me. I'll probably be okay but I don't know that for sure. I spent a significant amount of time today with blurry vision and wondering if I was going to have a stroke, and what that would feel like if it happened. It was unpleasant.

I started this blog series over the desire to talk about the hypertensive crisis. It's an invisible disease process. I was fortunate that mine was caught and I have been given a chance to address it. Maybe help others along the way but with any medical event, it's all so personal and unique. So mostly this is for me.

Tonight, I'm feeling that full circle and any confidence I built completely disintegrate. Every time I think I get a handle on this diagnosis, here I am again. Unsure.

Being unsure is allowing me to review and question my behavior. From that perspective? I don't know how anyone could have strong opinions. I think the healthier approach is to honestly assess the moment, accepting that life factors can change and to focus on what matters.