3/25/2025

I'm running out of time tonight, so this is going to be short.

Today was fun. There were technical difficulties at work. Most of my coworkers are young so they cannot remember a time before the internet or group chats. To be fair, I grew up poor in fundamentalist church culture who feared computers, so my youth access was minimal compared to others my age. I'm 41. I attended public school, but living in poverty centrals and having parents that insisted on imposing their religious needs onto my eduction/teachers? I really did not have much computer/tech access until I made it to college.

It was a nice throwback to using my hands to write and I realized something today. My handwriting is awful. But also? I hate tech. There isn't a day that goes by that I don't wonder how it all doesn't collapse. I wish I was joking but it all seems so fragile and yet corrupt.

I know the current profitable political nonsense is to delete the government but sometimes I feel like society would be better served by deleting the internet. It's nothing but ads, old data, horror in various forms, including words taken out of context and relivable PTSD from natural grief process. It's not like people learned their lessons from internet mistakes, because we're caught in echoes of the same problems reoccurring. Keeping it around doesn't seem to do anyone any good. Delete and fresh start? Maybe humanity could do better next time. Probably not, human nature created that mess. But idk, I found myself wondering that often today. If it all just went away...

Personally, I wouldn't miss it. I've deleted Facebook a couple times now. Same with Twitter accounts and various other SM. I've left my old lives behind and restarted fresh - multiple times in just this one life. As a teenager, leaving my family. Even as an adult by getting a divorce. I guess I'm just someone who appreciates change. I thrive in chaos. But right now, I'm very grateful that the kids are back in school and I have a sense of routine again. It's been two days of normal. School/work with no issues. Which seems rare, so I'm writing about it. Wish I had more time but I don't. I promised myself tv time and laziness. And ice cream. So I'm going to try to forget this busy day.