The bandaids are off! Able to type. :)
My mind has been all over the place today. I mostly feel trapped indoors and I am an outdoors person. This has been one of the harshest winters I can remember. I had plans to go to the store and prep for the next storm - yes there's another storm coming, but the wind/snow from yesterday knocked the trashcan over and the small amount of time it took me to fix it all, well I changed my mind. Been indoors all day.
It does feel weird to publicly journal. I've had this thought often lately but given the trajectory of information warfare and the world we find ourselves in - I personally think normalizing shared sentiment is the best approach. I'm around younger people all day - mostly mid twenties, culturally there has been a large shift in behavior patterns. They don't just Tik Tok all day. It's more about keeping others up to date on even the most boring details which make it easier to communicate through coded reference points. It's actually pretty awesome.
It was a huge culture/tech clash for me when I did return to work. I had been a stay at home mom for 14 years. Does anyone realize how much office/work culture had changed in that amount of time? I felt like one of those cave men coming back to life. lol. It was rough.
I had to relearn and that is possible. I also changed career fields, which helped. Blank slate. That factor was pretty cool, being a responsible adult getting a fresh start. Despite how hard it was to blow up my life and divorce, I believe happiness matters.
It is hard knowing that professionally and socially - those 14 years don't matter. I might as well been locked in a black hole. Those were the most intense years of my life. I gained so much knowledge and complexity, from just surviving and the rare situations I found myself in with the kids health concerns and even my husband's job demands. So when I mentioned the price of progression? No one knows it but me.
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